Mindy

i wish...♥

I was looking through my blog entries, the period after the breakup, I wrote something about hoping that I will find someone who will accept me for who I am.
I was afraid that I can't find the one who will accept me for who I am.
And till today, I realized still can't.
I don't know whether is it a wall that I built up subconsciously, to stop myself from falling madly in love before finding the one. But I guess it kinda make sense, to be loved as who I am even for my flaws, the person who can do that would be the person that I will love with all my heart and soul.
I guess it's hard not to protect myself after that breakup.
It was a gamble that I lost very badly, thus I prepared myself for the next one.
I'm not perfect, but I do know what I deserve and what I don't.



"I'm selfish, impatient and a little insecure. I make mistakes, I am out of control and at times hard to handle. But if you can't handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don't deserve me at my best."
— Marilyn Monroe